Even When It Hurts

Life. One small word that holds so much weight.

A few days before the New Year, we received a sad news from our dear friends (and life group leaders)… they lost their first baby at 35 weeks. For a moment, it felt like the world stopped when I saw the message. Ge and I were really in touch with them, from when they first announced the pregnancy until when we helped with their maternity photo shoot just a week before. I witnessed my friend’s growing tummy. We talked about her check-ups and the changes in her body; we threw a baby shower for them; and we were looking forward to see her deliver baby Teo this month. And then… he was gone.

It was tough. My heart aches for them, but I know that what I feel right now does not compare to the grief and hurt they are going through; and that the process of healing and recovery will be a journey. It makes me sad that there’s nothing we could say that will make them feel better, but it’s also a relief to know that they are still anchored with Jesus. When I asked my girl friend how she was feeling, she replied in faith: “We know there is a good reason behind this.”

This song reminded me of them. It is not easy to be in a state of praise considering what they are going through right now but they still chose to praise Jesus because He deserves it. After all, He shared our pain on the cross.

Even when the fight seems lost
I’ll praise You
Even when it hurts like hell
I’ll praise You
Even when it makes no sense to sing
Louder then I’ll sing Your praise

There are still a lot of things that I don’t understand. We pray but God doesn’t answer. We seek Him, but we don’t feel His presence. Why would He allow bad things to happen? Why would He give something and then take it away? Sometimes A lot of times, it doesn’t make sense but I know for sure, I don’t have to understand God’s plan to trust His purpose. I should know, I was the baby who was formed out of wedlock and whom my parents planned to abort and yet here I am.

[tweetthis] You don’t have to understand the plan to trust God’s purpose. [/tweetthis]

If you are going through something (we all are), remember that nothing is wasted with God. He’ll never waste a hurt; He’ll never waste an experience; He’ll never waste a dream. He never even wasted my life. :)

All those days that we thought we wasted over the wrong things or the wrong people, God will gather those days and restore it back to us. He’ll take those painful experiences and turn them around for our own benefit.

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don’t understand
When you don’t see His plan
When you can’t trace His hand
Trust His Heart

We mourned the loss of one life and prayed hope for another.
At the end of the day, we pray and commit ALL life to the one who authors it.