In a few days, we’re heading back to Europe for our longest and most ambitious travel to date! We’ve been planning this for a long time and though it isn’t exactly what we originally hoped for, I’m happy and excited all the same! :)
For nearly a decade, I have worked tirelessly and had seasons of love-hate relationship with my job in tech. There had been a lot of days when I had to sacrifice a good rest over a phone call in the middle of the night. Or pass on date nights, weekend gatherings and personal time because I had a deadline to meet.
I feel like I’ve already spread myself too thin and don’t own my time anymore. When my brain is fried and I’m beyond exhausted dealing with complaints and solving other people’s problems, I’d wonder if it’s even worth it to have a “stable job” yet get stuck in routine and lose my purpose in the process.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not complaining (I actually like my current work). But sometimes all the stress that comes with the trade just gets in the head. This is when God reminds me that it is not about whether life in this world is fair or not, or if my circumstances are perfectly comfortable. It’s more about my character and what’s going on inside my heart.
To allow myself rest and freedom, I contemplated on temporarily quitting my job to take a longer time off than the sum of the holidays and my annual leaves. It was an idea that dawned from a TED Talk by Stefan Seigmester. I want to do a lot of things that are difficult to accomplish on regular working days. I want to reset my bad sleeping habits and fully recuperate. To take my mind off deliverables and pursue creativity. To revisit my goals and priorities.
I want to be intentional with how I live my life.
For days on end, I prayed for this season to arrive… and when I’m ready to take the leap, God amazed me with even better options.
Four months ago I submitted my resignation and it was the scariest decision to make. In quitting, I know I will not only lose my work permit, I’d also have to face the risk of NOT getting a job when I come back to Singapore. For Asian workers like us, employment is necessary to stay here. And given the current employment market, I’m not even sure if I’d be able to get one right away. I know though that I can’t afford time and adventure pass me by just because I’m too scared to lose my job. God provides. He was the One who gave me this job anyway.
To my surprise, both my Manager and the Director supported my decision and asked me to take a sabbatical leave instead. That means I am going on my career break and still come back with a job waiting for me! I am in total disbelief I even cried happy tears! (of course, alone, in the wash room :D)
“Before they call I will answer; while they are still speaking, I will hear.” [Isaiah 65:24]
We’ve been saving for this trip, but the fact that there are still bills to pay and no income to look forward to is terrifying. I’ve worked around our budget spreadsheet so many times to make sure that we’ll be able to stay committed to our financial duties and still have enough left. I sent proposals to different travel companies to support us during our trip hoping to land to even one partnership.
Lo and behold, I didn’t just get one but a dozen blog collaborations that makes my heart singing with excitement! To top it off, I receive a salary increase letter from my Manager – my first in my four years as an expat in Singapore.
Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? [Matthew 6:26]
I still can’t wrap my head around how it all came to be. When we stopped piecing our own lives together and let God be the One who fix our broken mess then that’s when we become truly whole. That’s when change happen IN us.
Trusting God with everything is never easy – I fail at it daily. Yet that’s the thing with surrendering it all to Him… every time I choose faith over my fears, He moves mountains. When I pray big, impossible prayers, I see Him get them done.
Friends, we are created to live brave, beautiful and meaningful lives but more often we live out of fear instead of faith. Be courageous and enjoy the life of adventure God has for you. Whatever adventure looks like to you. You don’t have to go far. You don’t have to spend much. But you do have to go! Because God can use our small lives for His glory. ❤